A moment in history...

I wanted to pen this down to remind myself of this moment in history.

Its probably nothing big…but as I was driving to church, I knew I was meant to sit in for service…I knew that I was to expect something from today’s service. I just didn’t know what it was.

Ps Vincent preached on GPS – God’s Positioning System/Spirit. So happened, the memory verse was where I left off…the verse God gave me when I was praying for my PR almost 2 years ago. Proverbs 3:5-6.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path straight.

As he broke it down word for word, it actually came clear to me and I finally understood what God was actually trying to tell me 2 years ago. I don’t think I was meant to hear a clear NO or a clear YES from God to go or not to go. He just really wanted me to learn to trust Him with all my heart, to learn to not depend/lean on my own perceptions and ways…but to let me understand that His will is as important as well. Without me actually realizing that I did it….this verse has actually come to pass. I did it. Although it took me a long time to finally submit to Him, I did do it eventually…I acknowledged that His ways are ALWAYS higher than mine, and that His thoughts are not my thoughts. And after learning all that [the hard way], I’m already beginning to see the fruits and I believe it is only going to get better.

It was also this same verse that got me reflecting and allowing me to have a heart-to-heart chat with God. A moment in history I’d forever like crafted in my heart, remembering that I had this moment in time where I fully entrusted it ALL to God….

After such a long time, I finally had the opportunity to kneel down at His feet, telling Him that I love Him, I trust Him, that I put all my faith in Him, submitting to His will and fully committing my love-life and career into His hands. Not half-heartedly…but fully, whole-heartedly, totally, entirely….acknowledging that He is and always will be the author of my life, believing and trusting Him...having 100% faith in Him that He has plans for me that I probably could not imagine…plans for a beautiful life ahead…..and something tells me that this is only just the beginning

i just got back from  a good one-on-one girly evening with eunice. it was the first ever without kevin around and i suppose its a good thing cos we then get to share more than the usual surface stuff...and less of a guy's perspective on things  spent 5 hours just chatting about everything under the sun...and as much as i was flat out tired from the whole 2-3 weeks of sleeping less than my usual 8 hours, i'm glad i made it for dinner although i was 2hours late  

throughout the entire dinner, it made it even more clearer why i was connected to her. there was a reason why i had to go through what i went through. it made it so much more easier to understand her situation and she was so glad that someone saw her perspective of things and related to what she is going through. she needed support, accountability and encouragement...and i was there.

and then when i came home, i checked my email and received one from mf.

it was very humbling (as much as she probably doesnt realise this). here i am, living so much further away from her, and she chose to unload to me. i dont mind it at all...in fact, as i said, its very humbling. i love listening, i love praying for people, i love being there for someone  hugs babe. will reply you tmr

whilst driving home tonight, i was just speaking to God (yes, time in the car alone has always been my me time with my Heavenly Father ) and it just continues to confirm God's purpose and calling for me.

outreach-connect-love-passion for people.

Lord, i'll get started on it when i come back from my holiday k  i know its been nagging at me...since forever. i have a car now. no more excuses  meanwhile, feel free to use me when i'm back in kl

Resolution for 2010? Set!

i passed my driving test and finally have a full Australian driving license!

i actually failed the first time, and only managed to book the second test a month later. and this 2nd time, i only barely passed...LOL. according to the examiner, if i made one more error, i would have failed...again

but who cares?! at least i still passed! LOL. that was the most important thing. i even thought of going back to m'sia to get an international license if i were to fail the 2nd time...hehehe

guess our driving and road transport authority in m'sia needs to buck up and stop accepting *ahem* under the "table"

why am i so happy? because i bought a car more than a month ago  now i can drive "legally" without being afraid of getting caught  

here's a pic of my car, only that mine is lilac in colour

Today is one of those days where you have heaps of time on your hands and you suddenly want to read through the weekly devotions sent to you which has been filling up your inbox, categorized under Unread Mails.

And it’s one of those days where you can really soak them all in, read them with a smile whilst nodding your head. Sometimes things only sink in after you’ve gone past it. It is only when you look back and reflect, ponder and then ask yourself why didn’t I have that tenacity back then?!

You can't enjoy today if you're worrying about the past or the future.

Your mind and your thoughts could be stuck in the past, continually thinking about what has already happened. If that's the case, it's best to get over it. The past has already happened; you can't do anything to change it. Rather, you ought to trust God that he is working out those things for ultimate good (see Romans 8:28).

On the other hand, your mind could be stuck in the future, thinking about what might happen, what you fear will happen, and things you wish wouldn't happen. However, being a person of faith requires trust--trusting God about the future.

Romans 15:13 says, May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him. You'll have joy and peace when you trust in God. Why? Because you'll be able to rest and relax knowing that God has good plans in store for you (Jeremiah 29:11).

Don't worry about the past or the future. Instead, have faith; trust God. When you trust God to help you learn from the past and provide for your future, you're free to enjoy your life today.

A breakthrough requires a trial to break through.

It would be nice to simply wake up one day and suddenly be a mature Christian, but in order to grow up in God, we will have to go through trials. There is no other way to grow strong spiritually than to go through trials.

1 Peter 5:10 says, And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. You may not like trials, but this verse says that when you are going through trials after you have suffered a little while, you will grow to be firmly rooted and grounded (strong, firm and steadfast) in God.

Similarly, James 1:12 says, Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. Here again, you don't get the rewards (the crown of life) until you have persevered under trial and stood the test.

So, learn to be thankful in your trials, because in order to get your breakthrough, you need a trial to break through.

Therefore, don't be discouraged during times of suffering. Know that after you have suffered a little while, God himself will make you strong firm and steadfast.